Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Of the Heart

So I've been delaying blogging again mainly because I don't want this to turn into a "My life at Wal-Mart Sucks" Blog (there are actually quite a few of those go check them they will make you love you're live even more) but also becuase my life is fairly boring and not much has been happening BESIDES work. But I got on tonight to put something on here and I will. At first I was going to cheat and just put a simple survey I had filled out on her, something that I may do anyway so that those of you who may not know overly much about me may learn some more. But that ws a failure since the quality of surveys I found was lacking.

My second try was going to be another "MLAWMS" entry (see above) but honestly, nothing bad has happened. We may be slammed but it's retail in the holidays, it's expected. in all honesty, work is great. I received a stellar report on my 3 month review, and am running shifts with relative ease now. So that idea is a flop (although I just got an idea for another blog. . .) I'm 0-2 now, not doing so hot.

So in the end, I'm going to resort to the same thing tha every author ever has, and something that I make fun of horrendously. Romance. You see, I have the unfortunate misfortune (Yeah, Mrs. Gould will kill me for that one) of falling for people that are either:
1)Completely unattainable
or my personal favorite 3)Crazy as sin

In this case the problem is number number one. I have fallen for someone whom I cannot have a legitimate relationship with. Without going into details which would reveal her identity, there are just too many things (at this time) that prevent a relationship beyond that of friends. And while I do cherish her friendship, it becomes rather difficult to remain satisfied with only being such.

Now I'm not usually one to gripe, complain, or try to change things, indeed one of my major flaws is stoicism; I just allows problems to remain and be. In truth, this isn't the first time I have had this problem, but at the risk of sounding cliche, this time just seems different. And although it could be said that every Love/crush is inheirantly different, I reiterate, this time is different. I don't want to make any declarations about doing whatever it takes, but at the same time, I've already made changes due to my feelings, not (neccessarily) to enable or increase my chances of a relationship, but really because she does think highly of me (with platonic admiration) and I want to better myself so as to be worthy of her praise.

But all of this talk of not-quite-teen angst is undoubtedly beginning to wear thin on all of you, so I shall leave you all and retire for the time being. Hope everyone is sleeping soundly. God Bless.



Liz said...

Glad to hear it is going well at work. I would imagine the crazies will be out in full force soon. Wish you were going to be here for turkey.
I miss you!

JSG said...

I won't berate you for your "unfortunate misfortune" because I recall a time when many of my peers were trying to navigate those 3 choices. The 4th option is that she's there somewhere, and when the time is right you'll find one another.

Keep the faith.